Saturday, June 11 2011 @ 11:58 am PDT
Contributed by: WatchCat
I've often wondered if that's the story behind the story with my EMT job. Maybe they did just throw me to the wolves, or maybe it was obvious that the passion was no longer there. And though the failure still rankles, the fact that I'm ok with not knowing the answer speaks volumes on its own.
And I know a few PJ candidates who need to think about that as well. As someone wrote to me recently, successful PJs know they have a true calling.
1. The coexistence of opposing attitudes or feelings, such as love and hate, toward a person, object, or idea.
2. Uncertainty or indecisiveness as to which course to follow.
Some people have nothing but themselves in the way of following their passion. If you're in that lucky category, make it happen.
For the rest of us, schedules and responsibilities make the choices harder. It's still a choice. Most of us know someone who has thrown those things aside to follow a passion. And they have to live with the often-ugly consequences. For those of us who do not, it's easy to be resentful, almost wishing we were not bound by our ethics. So we plod our ethical course with no enthusiasm or certainty because it seems to be all that we have. When things don't work out, we feel an odd mixture of despair and satisfaction because the bad results confirm that we'd rather be doing something else. If we actually got excited about what we were doing, we'd be "betraying our hearts"...not to mention setting ourselves up for more heartache when something we wanted fell through.
Most people know that I don't do things halfway. Unless...if I don't want to do them, then I'm very distractable.
Sometimes it's tough getting head and heart to sync up. I'll be the first to admit it. But that state of ambivalence is no way to live.
Get behind your decisions. If you don't put your heart and effort into them, yes you will fail. You can be tough physically or in whatever way makes the job possible, but if you're not committed to your course of action, you won't get there. It's mostly mental. You can't look at what you left behind. You can't look at the odds of failure. You can only look at the goal and what it's going to take to get you there.